Holy smokes.  I haven’t made a post on here since last July?  Yikes.  I have made a few videos since then…but the last video was posted to YouTube on December 23, 2018.  Almost a YEAR ago.  Where’s Femtrooper?  What happened?  Well, to sum it up, I had a baby!

My beautiful healthy son was born in May and so yes…I could have been posting videos while I was pregnant but I was so damn huge and uncomfortable, the last thing I wanted to do was go film videos.  Looking back on it, I seriously should have, but at the time, it just seemed like such a hassle.  Then my son was born and filming videos was nearly impossible.  Newborns eat every THREE hours and wow, I am not sure how I did that.  Thank god he started sleeping through the night at around six weeks old because I talk to people who have kids older than my son who still don’t sleep through the night and I literally don’t know how they function.  My point is, at first, I couldn’t really do anything.  You live on this weird three hour clock and so going in the Femtrooper Room to film videos and talk about video games was definitely not something I was doing.  I also wasn’t playing any video games.  It’s pretty hard to do anything but sleep and eat during the first few months of having a baby.  It’s kind of a blur now that I look back on it…how was I functioning?

When he was around two and a half months old, the Dragon Quest XI: S demo was released on the Nintendo Switch eShop and I was feeling a lot better, body wise and sleep wise.  I thought I would check it out as I was starting to have a little bit more time on my hands.  Things were SLOWLY getting back to normal.  Normal enough that I maybe had an hour here or there to play a video game.  I instantly fell in love.  It was nice to be able to play a video game again and feel somewhat of a sense of normalcy in my life.  Video games and movies are my passion and biggest hobbies and I am telling you right now, that’s been really hard for me and my husband to just go from seeing two movies a week to seeing one movie every few months or so in the theatre.  It’s a really hard adjustment. We were self-appointed cinephiles and were proud to go see obscure movies nobody heard of at the indie theatre or see almost every Oscar nomination and then brag about it at work.  Now I’m lucky if I see a movie once a month (if that!).  That’s been the hardest part.  It’s extreme.  One day you’re seeing tons of movies…one day you’re not.  It’s not gradual.  Having a baby really hits you in the face.  Now, I am not going to sit here and complain about parenthood because in my experience, it’s not ‘take a shower once a week and never have a second to yourself hard’.  Again, that’s my experience, but you see a lot of mommy blogs that are so negative and I feel like that’s all bullshit.  Having a baby is life changing and difficult at times, but it’s not life ending.  I still found time (not sure how) to play and BEAT Dragon Quest XI: S and most recently, Link’s Awakening.  I make time for me because I am still a person with interests and hobbies.  I am still Femtrooper.  That has not changed.  Most recently, my son has been going to bed a little earlier and so my husband and I have been able to watch movies at night now, so I feel like I will be able to catch up on some missed titles in the coming months.

So that’s what has been going on in my life.  I am lucky.  I have a six month old who sleeps 12 hours a night (STRAIGHT), has a great temperament, is always happy, and is the cutest damn thing I’ve ever seen.  My husband and I are super happy and can’t wait for all the fun milestones to come.  Yes, it has meant my YouTube channel has taken a backseat, but I’ll be back.  Once I feel that I can vlog on a weekly basis, I’ll start making videos again.  I want that to be very clear.  I’m not abandoning the channel because I actually really like filming videos!  It’s such a fun pastime for me but I simply just don’t have the time now.  If I get a free hour, I want to watch something or play a video game, not film a video.  It’s a lot of hard work, but as my son gets older, I’ll get back in there and film videos again.  100%.  I am hoping that can happen next year, but no promises.  Instead, I thought that maybe I would try blogging on here more.  I seem to be able to write while also hanging out with my son, so it seems like a win/win.  I’ll give this a shot for the next little bit and see how it goes.  I really want to be able to post things about what I’ve been doing video game wise or just random Top 10 lists (because those are my favourite!).  Anything geeky/video game/pop culture related is my jam and if I can write about it, I’m there!

It would mean a lot to me if you could join me on my blogging journey in between being able to go back on YouTube again.  Let me know what you think and if this is something you are interested in reading / checking out.  I am very active on twitter (@thefemtrooper) – so please feel free to reach out to me there.  I use it every day and am always posting.

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